I’m really Shy

In general. Not around my close friends, but that’s a different story…

When I’m around people I don’t know, even grown-ups, I am incredibly shy and awkward. I don’t know how to communicate with people so most of the time I just end up standing there awkwardly smiling and laughing every now and then. I never say anything unless it’s really a must. I always feel like people are judging me. Even freaking grown-ups. Around teachers I feel like they’re thinking “Wth is wrong with this kid.” Around parents I feel like they’re thinking “Wow this girl. Why is she friends with my child.”…

Around other older people I feel like they think I’m just a stupid useless disrespectful poor little girl. I know, maybe there is something wrong with me when it takes me forever to think about whether or not I should say hi or hello, how to say it, what else to say…

Even with my overseas friends… I find it awkward replying to their tweets, messages, emails, texts, etc. I just wasn’t sure what they’ll think of me, but whenever they’d reply me it can make my day already, yeah :3. I’m even much more awkward when they call me, I rarely speak that they even thought that the signal was lost.. hahaha.

Me too, I wonder why I get so many online friends despite of being so shy and all… But I write more more than I spoke… I express more my feelings and thought through writing. That’s why this post is taking too long for a shy person. teehee.

PS: I fail at human interaction but at least I has really awemazing friends in real life and of course my friends overseas…

Only reminds me of you ♥

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A song I used to listen to.

I realize how much everything has changed. How much I’ve changed. It’s nostalgic. I’m writing this thing listening to this song, and thinking about a very good friend of mine. She was in love with this song so much, she even knows to play this using a guitar. We used to hang out everyday in grade 6. We lost our closeness when we entered high school.

I guess things are supposed to be that way right? Different people weave in and out of your life, leaving these footprints we call memories and teaching us something new. Some stay longer than others, and others may even stay forever.

I wonder why that happens…why certain people stay and others leave. It kind of bugs me sometimes when I realize that I’ve done the same. I enter people’s lives and then within the next couple of months, I disappear. We might see each other but the connection is lost, or maybe it’s just weak.

Does that work with people we smile at when we walk down the street? Is the human connection weak or not? Maybe it’s us. Maybe it’s the way we think, “I’ve grown up”, or “I have different tastes in ____”. Nothing’s static but that’s not what I want. Change is good, but how much change is what determines the longevity of a connection.

I wonder if a severed connection affects both ends of the connection. Would they feel the weakened connection? Would they feel uncomfortable? I guess it would depend on how strong the connection is. Or it could be how aware we are of the connection.

Does solitude also affect the connection? If a person spends much of their time alone, would they be able to feel the connection more or less? It could go either way, but how would it feel?

Then again, everything can go back to: what is a connection?

FAIRY TAIL - S.O.W Sence Of Wonder ♥

FAIRY TAIL - S.O.W Sence Of Wonder ♥

performed by Idoling!

Click here to see lyrics

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Another anime song that can't get off in my mind lately ♥... Forever loving the music and how the group (idoling) delivered it XD The English translation of the song made me love it more!!! The meaning of the lyrics also touched me. The song is just too heart :)

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taking my opportunity to blog since I've been out again for weeks. Me need to review for the National Achievement test

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I love the Rain

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I ♥ the rain.

I love the rain because it reminds me of some good memories from the past. I love the rain because it's lovely. I love the rain because it gives life to the earth by giving the beautiful flowers and green plants what they need to survive. I love the rain because it is a thing of beauty. I love the rain because it looks like an elegant crystals falling from the sky which gives me hope. I love the rain because it inspires me in some different ways. I love the rain because it makes me happy. I love the rain because it is mesmerizing. I love the rain because it smells is so refreshing. I love the rain because it's just so. I love the rain because I can play with it. I love it when it's raining specially when I'm asleep. I love the rain because it's cold and when it's cold I can drink hot coffee and hot chocolates.

And I love it because it makes up the RAINBOW.