In general. Not around my close friends, but that’s a different story…
When I’m around people I don’t know, even grown-ups, I am incredibly shy and awkward. I don’t know how to communicate with people so most of the time I just end up standing there awkwardly smiling and laughing every now and then. I never say anything unless it’s really a must. I always feel like people are judging me. Even freaking grown-ups. Around teachers I feel like they’re thinking “Wth is wrong with this kid.” Around parents I feel like they’re thinking “Wow this girl. Why is she friends with my child.”…
Around other older people I feel like they think I’m just a stupid useless disrespectful poor little girl. I know, maybe there is something wrong with me when it takes me forever to think about whether or not I should say hi or hello, how to say it, what else to say…
Even with my overseas friends… I find it awkward replying to their tweets, messages, emails, texts, etc. I just wasn’t sure what they’ll think of me, but whenever they’d reply me it can make my day already, yeah :3. I’m even much more awkward when they call me, I rarely speak that they even thought that the signal was lost.. hahaha.
Me too, I wonder why I get so many online friends despite of being so shy and all… But I write more more than I spoke… I express more my feelings and thought through writing. That’s why this post is taking too long for a shy person. teehee.
PS: I fail at human interaction but at least I has really awemazing friends in real life and of course my friends overseas…
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